The beauty of people

A wall I put in my mind
Hiding myself away from change
Away from  tragedy
And horrid horrors
Blocking out anger
And heartache
Love even
I pull a blind on my eyes
I keep them shut to block out images
Of fears
Loves
And many hopes
I conceal my most inner self
The person I am
So I won't get flawed
Burned
Corrected
Regretted
Forgotten
I hide myself from the world
So no one will hurt me
Or get me to close
I won't let them get to me
But one day I took down my blinds
And I saw magic in the air
I saw fireflies in the skies
I saw laughter in the moment
I saw beautiful tragedy happen
So I then I removed the wall in my mind
And I I learned love
As well as heartache
I learned tragedy and how it worked
I learned the wonders of friendship
And horrors ways of hurt
I opened up my inner most self
And learned who I was
I found my personality
And friendship
And love
I learned my anger
And all its pain
I felt the crazy in me
The insane
I learned who I was
And myself I could read
Finally I knew me
The world called me out of were I hid
And everything was beautiful
The air was soft with song
The world was filled with inspired voices
The hearts were filled with love
There were wrong and right choices
The people were so complex and some would hold you close
So warm the feeling of love
The fun horror of ghost
The rain was cold and wet
And a loving heart kept us warm
Tragedy killed hearts so fragile weak so frail
But knowledge was  now there
Making the broken hearted stronger
Yes the world is not perfect
And it has many flaws
But it is definitely worth it
With all adventures and awes

Nightmare

    A small soul sat weeping in the corner,Tears streaming down her face which  gently glided over her mascara stained cheeks. Her eyes where glossy and filled with fears, and her body was trembling uncontrollably, every nerve became paralyzed with fear. I will myself to stay in the shadows  for I couldn't show her it was I who caused her this pain. I sat for hours watching her as she jerked at every sound and was alarmed by every movement. I shouldn't have scared her so badly. Though I had too or I would be killed. I sat still starring at her for another hour, then I began to leave. I heard her voice call out fearfully saying," Who are you and why have you been watching me." I didn't turn around I couldn't, she would be scared if she saw my face. The women again spoke this time a little more demanding," Who are you and why have you been watching me." I had to turn  I had to let her see me or else she would give my kind away to the police. I slowly began to turn until our eyes locked. I could see  myself in her glassy eyes and I watched an my figure became her fears. "You were in my nightmares." She squeaked out. I took in her words slowly letting them sink into my mind, trying to find an answer for her. Finally I spoke," No ma'm I was not in your nightmare, I was the nightmare. And with that I had to leave. I sunk back into the shadows emerging myself into darkness processing what I had said. I had told her the truth I was a nightmare, literally. I wasn't a disabled dream or a scary thought at sleep, I was a nightmare and that is what I would always be.

Simple love

Stomach churns
Then Red face
Head twists and turns
Heart starts to race
Eyes lock
Fear in each
Other's eyes mock
While ours reach
Deep into his soul
Look I do
Ready to pay the toll
If this love is not true
But I see a heart
With a special place
That is my part
With a loving pace
Warmth comes over me
I'm reassured
Love comes quietly
So firm so sure
He sees too
His special place
And we continue this loving pace
Are eyes stayed still
And we talked and talked
Though no words came out
And our mouth were locked
But our hearts chatted on
Bringing smiles to our face
Singing their loving song
At their own loving pace